Marriage & Divorce

Marriage & Divorce

Survivor

This last six months, even up to a year have been the most challenging in my life.

We have our wonderful little girl, and most people see her as such a delight which she is most of the time, but like most 1 or 1 1/2 year olds she has her HORRIBLE moments. Don't believe me just ask my parents or my inlaws. My mother in law made this adorable halloween quilt that Morgan absolutely loves (what kind of child loves only one blanket that she doesnt sleep with) and my mother in law will lay it on the ground and Morgan will lay on it roll around, trace her fingers on the spiderweb embroidery, she'll sit and play on there for a half hour but when its time to go she screams, and when Morgan screams she holds her breathe to the point you think she'll pass out. She has been a huge blessing. I love being a mom.....most days.

Besides my wonderful daughter, Jacob and I were able to go through the hellacious process of buying a home which we got to live in for 3 months. After a month of living there, Jacob lost his job. So because of the economy Jacob wasn't able to find a job in Utah so we looked in Washington and he was able to find one. We rented out our home to a college student, unfortunately she hasn't been able to make rent so theres a chance we're going to lose our home. We're trying to get it current, which we think we're going to be able to do, but if things don't get better we're most likely going to have to sell it, which will be pricey. And of course when finances are stressful it makes a marriage hard. So we've struggled, and fought and been at our whits end.

I also had an emergency room visit because I had an ovarian cyst that ruptured. I spent twelve hours in the hospital, had 7 rooms, and one surgery. I am now getting my bills, without the physician expenses, our tab is up to $34,000. Ouch

But all in the end... my husband and my daughter is the very reason why I'm still here. I watch a show with Reba McIntire called... ironically..REBA!! In her intro song she sings..

"I'm a Mom who works too hard who will loves her kids and never stop, with gentle hands and the heart of a fighter, I'm a survivor."

I'm a survivor, its hard to be strong through these hard times, and if it wasn't for my husband and child I wouldn't have been strong enough to survive this.

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Halloween

As you can see Morgan had a good time on Halloween. I think she was just most excited that she got to run around in other peoples yards. The first house she went to she walked in there door. I had to run in and get her.

Also Jacob got a job. He's working for a company called Pixel Fire. Right now he's making a an LED light display on the big gold building Vegas. I can't remember what its called. Its hard for him to go back to full time work when he's been doing freelance for 3 months

Morgans on the toilet

We're potty training Morgan. We just let her run around naked and she goes and sits on the toilet when she's ready. Its funny when she forgets though, because she just stands there crying as she pees down her leg. So here's the first poop in the toilet, pretty cute poop if poop could be cute.

For Halloween Morgan was a lady bug. She was pretty cute but her head must be big or something because her hat is too small. Ignore my picture here Morgan looked pretty cute.

I made a quilt for Morgan, Its not completely done yet but the top is so you can kind of see what it looks like.

Moving to Washington

Well I went up to Washington just to visit family and while I was up there I had a revelation that Jacob should come up here and look for jobs because the job search wasn't very successful in Utah. So Jacob has come up here and has been looking for a job for the past two weeks. He's had a few interviews and has a second intereview next week. But we've also found that he gets very positive feed back regarding his freelance work.

So we decided to move to Washington, we will be renting out our house which is sad but at least we wont lose it indeffinately for now. By moving up here Jacob has a higher opportunity to get as job as well as have more freelance work.

We are going to be renting out Jacobs parents downstairs which has a seperate entrance, kitchen, washer and dryer and everything. We've both agreed that we would be completely seperate.

So We're pretty bummed that we wont be in our house more than a few months but it gives us an opportunity to for Jacob to explore better options and for me to teach at my old studio and go to my old college. I'm pretty excited but pretty bummed.

We're going to miss everyone but we have to look for whats best for our family.

As of late

Since Jacob is home alot, looking for jobs and such, its been really nice having him home. We've done yard work (that desperately needed to be done) went up to the Canyon for a walk and to take some pictures. We celebrated his birthday, and went to scera pool.

The other day Jacob and I were laying in bed just talking around 11 pm. He sees all these miniscual spiders and the ceiling and wall. Looks like an egg just hatched. So Jacob spends about 30 minutes with a tissue going up to each spider to kill it. Our ceilings are a little vauled so there were areas that he couldn't reach, so what does jacob grab to kill them, ...a bat. Yep a bat. Surprisingly he did pretty well. For me it was pretty fun to watch because I didn't have my contacts in so I couldn't see what he was hitting, so it was kind of like watching a man that just walked into a spiders web in the distance or some man thats having a bee chase him.

This morning Morgan was walking around talking, and jacob is laying down so she comes up to him and slaps his face. I told her no and that she needed to be soft so she smiles and bends down and gave Daddy a kiss on his head where she hit him earlier. Her vocabulary is expanding now she can say: Dada, Mama, Nana, Bye Bye, more (in sign), all done (in sign), love you, and her favorite tickle tickle, which she walks around saying all day.

We deffinately need to get a sprinkler for our yardThe water was so cold. I only let her play in this part for like 5 mins because by the time she was done her lips and from her shoulders to her hands were blue

My Child isn't depressed or anything, just a little dramatic
This was my favorite picture I took of bridal veil falls. I haven't gone shooting in so long it was nice to get out again. I really miss it, Probably my second love to dancing.
It was pretty cold up top. That day Morgans nose started running so we were nervous she was getting a cold but later figured out she's getting a molar in. Sad